I forgot to mention that I went to dinner Friday night with my dear, dear friend Melody! We had a great time catching up and eating dinner :)
We had another nice relaxing weekend. I was off on Friday (we started a new 9/80 schedule at work) and I got to go see Carsten and Cara before they left town. I did some running around and managed to get Raeven's hair done. She looks so cute! Saturday I had to help my mom with her garage sale. IT WAS crazy! She made something like $1300! She had a lot of crap to get rid of. Sunday I went to church and lunch with Karol, while Andrew stayed at home and cleaned. Then we packed the children in the car and went to the dog park. We took evil Chipug, but we made sure she had her bark collar. She only attacked one dog, so we consider this trip successful :) After the dog park, we stopped by Andrew's parents house to show off our new baby. We also ran into Aunt Carol. Overall, it was another nice weekend!
Andrew and I had a good weekend. We actually spent a lot of time together. I don’t think we realized that we needed a break from life and worries and such, and just needed us time. Saturday night we went to the Studio Movie Grill and had date night. We saw The Departed. The movie sucked, but the time together was nice. Sunday we got up and went to church with Karol, Melody, and Jesse. It was SOO nice to go to church! The message was great and it really hit home. Then Sunday afternoon we went to go meet Raeven and brought her home. We spent the evening with the children just chilling. It was nice, all of it!
Sometimes I wonder what is wrong with Andrew and me! Let me explain, it happened like this. I saw a post on the Pug Meetup site for a dog that needed a home. I asked Andrew if we could add a dog to our family. He said yes. I emailed the woman. She responded. We went to meet her and pick up the dog yesterday. NOW, are we crazy? I think so!
Raeven Dove (Raeven is her original name, but I added the Dove part because Raven Dove is a Dolly song) is SOOO cute and she is very small. She only weighs 6 pounds! She is a very expensive Brussel Griffon. We did not buy her, we just adopted her. No money exchanged hands :) BTW...she needs a good haircut. Hopefully, we can go get her cut this weekend. I think she looks like a mini Chubacca (however you spell that!).
Maybe we are crazy, but we are happy and she has a good home now. Can you tell Andrew is smitten with her?
I made the pumpkins and put them on my desk.
The leaf magnets I made for Ro (my co-worker) because I had made some magnets for some other people, and she was feeling left out!
My other co-worker Jenny sent me the cute pug Halloween card! I made the little candy corn magnets to accent the card ;)
I love the fall!
We love the cooler weather. It has been so nice. Last weekend we decided the BBQ and eat dinner outside.
"I HATE YOU for buying new furniture. I'm never snugging with you AGAIN, EVER!!" 
The Way We Were
Memories,
Like the corners of my mind
Misty water-colored memories
Of the way we were
Scattered pictures,
Of the smiles we left behind
Smiles we gave to one another (Pascal: WE USE TO BE SOMETHING SPECIAL, YOU USE TO LET ME DO WHATEVER I WANTED TO DO)
For the way we were
Can it be that it was all so simple then?
Or has time re-written every line? (Pascal: TIME AND MARRIAGE, EVER SINCE YOU MARRIED THAT MORON MY LIFE HAS GONE TO THE DOGS)
If we had the chance to do it all again
Tell me, would we? (Pascal: HELL YES WE WOULD, WE WERE LIVING THE LIFE)
could we? (Chipug: NO BECAUSE DADDY YELLS AT US)
Memories, may be beautiful and yet
Whats too painful to remember (Chipug: HOW COULD YOU? DONT I DESERVE TO BE COMFORTABLE?)
We simply choose to forget (Chipug: I AINT FORGETTIN NOTHING, YOU BETTER LOCK YOUR DOORS AT NIGHT LADY)
So its the laughter (Pascal: AND THE BIG FLUFFY PILLOWS)
We will remember
Whenever we remember...The way we were...The way we were...
Andrew and I celebrated our 2nd anniversary over the weekend. We went to dinner and had a romantic evening. Andrew bought me some perfume and a beautiful cross necklace. Love you Sparky!
Oh yeah, we also ate the remaining piece of our wedding cake. It was gross!
Andrew and I got some new furniture this weekend! The only way I could get him to go and even LOOK at new furniture was if I promised him he could have a recliner. Hey, I had to do what I had to do :) So we ended up finding an AWESOME deal on a sectional at the Macy's furniture outlet, and then we bought his recliner at Fingers. Overall, we got lucky, both pieces we love and were very reasonable. No bad if I do say so myself!
We finally got satellite tv and one day last week Andrew tells me about this new channel. He said it was a Lifetime for Men channel. I tell him I have never heard of it before and he tells me he LOVES it and he is very excited about it. A few days later, while he was surfing, we come across LMN. He tells me that this is the new channel, the new Lifetime for Men Network channel. I say, are you sure about that, LMN stands for Lifetime MOVIE network, NOT MEN network!!! I swear he is SOOO blonde at times!
The girl doctor might be wrong about the fibroid. My doctor seems to think it is thick uterine lining. WHO THE HELL KNOWS AT THIS POINT! But Andrew and I are excited and we feel like we are still in the game :) I am going to search for a new doctor, since these people can't get their stuff together. More later.
It is extremely hard for me to see all the good in my life when I don't get what I want, when I want it.
These past weeks have been HELL. All the testing, and the waiting, to finally find out that all the fertility drugs did not help us create a baby, but instead helped my body created an intracavity uterine fibroid. All I can say is UGH, UGH, and more UGH.
Yesterday was rough for me. Very rough. I cried and cried and cried. I screamed, I kicked, I yelled. Then I cried some more. The words, "I just don't understand. I just don't get it. Why us?" were repeated to the point that they made little sense.
Then all of the sudden, as if the cloud had been lifted, I actually felt relieved. Relieved that this fibroid was giving me the break I desperately needed. Relieved, that for at least a few weeks, I won't have to think about a "baby."
The option of us having a baby is not possible while the fibroid is alive. It literally takes up all the room in my uterus. This thing is probaby why I am not pregnant right now. The egg had no where to implant itself because the fibroid was in the way. I shall name this fibroid Sidney, and it can go the same place Sybill went to, cyst and fibroid heaven. I digress :)
This morning I got up and I was happy. I even sang along to a song on the radio! I am relieved that I can go furniture shopping this weekend and not worry about spending the money. I am relieved that I can go and buy that $50 purse I have been looking at and not feel guilty that I should be saving for the baby. I am relieved that we can once again be the selfish adults we LOVE to be and only think about ourselves and help the economy by spending lots of money on over marketed things.
Isn't it odd how the heart and brain work? One minute I am sad, the next minute I am relieved and happy again. I am sure I there will be more rough patches, but for now, I feel happy and I am soo okay with that!
Today I am going to call my GYN and make an appointment for the surgery to have the fibroid removed. My research on the internet tells me that it might be weeks before I can get the procedure done. I think they like to try hormone therapy first to shrink it, and then they go in and take it out.
I have NO idea what this means for our fertility future. All of those wonderful fertility drugs may not be an option for us anymore, because they make the fibroids grow like weeds. And even after surgery, these fibroids can come back with a vengeance.
Andrew and I talked about adoption last night and we are starting a separate savings account for that. If we save at least $150 a month for the next five years, we will have the $10K we need to start the process. If something happens along the way, then we will just be that more prepared.
I keep reminding myself that no one said this life was going to be easy. Lord don't I know that! But somewhere along the way, through all of this, I have to keep searching for all the good in my life. We have a roof over our heads, food on our table, and for the most part we have our health. We also have lots of support and love from our friends and family. What more could we ask for when you put it that way?!
Okay, all of you people can STOP complaining now! I am BAAACCCKKK.
***You Are a Chihuahua Puppy***
Small, high strung, and loyal.You do best in the city with a adults - young kids could crush you!
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***Your Birthdate: September 22***
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Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true
Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid
Your power color: Silver
Your power symbol: Square
Your power month: April
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Your eyes reflect: Intensity and drive
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You are kind, popular, and generous.You tend to be successful at anything you try.A social butterfly, you are great at entertaining a crowd.
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