My man sent me flowers and candy to the office today for me! AAWWW...how sweet! I have been in "office hell" and I think he just wanted to brighten up my day and tell me how much he loves me! Thanks Sparky!
These are the three things I miss everyday (one in particular I know I should not miss, but I do)!
- Percival-Every time I look at Pascal I see Percival all over again. I miss him dearly.
- Cigarettes-I think I know what addiction is all about now. I know that cigatettes are bad for me, but I still crave them everyday. It is a daily battle.
- My Jeep-I never thought I would miss an inanimate object so much! I think what I miss most about my Jeep is that when I drove it around I felt young!
I just want to say that appreciate everyone's comments! I love getting different view points on subjects in my life. I don't want anybody to feel like your comments are not welcomed :)
I think that is a wonderful statement to remember, thanks Karol! :)
I have been wresting with the whole baby thing lately. I just can't make a decision to save my life! The past 6 months have been hard on us, and to even think about another 6 months like this is unbearable! I am going to go ahead with the infertility testing, but I am thinking about taking a break after that. I just want to make sure we are having a baby for the right reasons, and not just because we are on a roll. Make sense?!
A close friend, and my husband, recently told me that I lack confidence. At first, their comments and the idea that people would think that I lack confidence caught me off guard.
Internally, I have always thought I had confidence. In fact, in certain situations, I have often thought that I was overly confident.
Isn't it weird how you can see yourself so differently than others do? I decided to do some thinking and I took their comments to heart.
I decided I needed a solid definition of what confidence is, so I went to www.dictionary.com!
con·fi·dence----A feeling of assurance, especially of self-assurance.
I guess I have been confusing confidence with self-worth, or some other characteristic. Now that I have a true definition, maybe I do lack confidence in the aspect that I am whishy-washy!
I go back-and-forth on my ideas and what I think. For instance, one day I think Coke is the best drink ever, and then the next day, I question myself and before I know it I think Pepsi is the best drink ever!
So I think they were right! Now I need to get more confidence. I am going to start standing behind my initial thoughts and ideas. Start standing behind my beliefs and values. Stop questioning my actions to the point of second guessing them. It's a new day, people! A new day!
We went to the dog park on Sunday. We had a blast! Chipug tried to kill every other dog, while Fat Bastard ran around and tried to hump every other dog!
Andrew and I had a good Valentine's day. He bought me several gifts and gave me two cards! I got him some boots, two pairs of socks, and a belt. We also went out to dinner and had a very nice evening!
The specialist basically told us that he doesn't think we will have any problems having a baby. HOWEVER, we have to do some testing before we can really get down to business! Within the next week (or so) the following is going to happen:
*I am having a lot of blood work done (yeah, like 12 vials!).
*I am also going to have some test done where shoot dye up into my uterus and check it all out.
*Andrew is giving his sample for testing.
Then after all of that and the results are analyzed, we can go from there!
So blue monster had to answer the phones today for a little while at his work. I decided I wanted to play a joke on him, here is what went down:
Andrew: ProClaim America how may I direct your call?
Amy: May I please speak to Al.
Andrew: I'm sorry, who are you looking for?
Amy: Al.
Andrew: I'm sorry, but I think you have the wrong number.
Amy: I am looking for Al, Al Coholic. I know he works there.
It was great! Made my day! I got the idea from http://www.snpp.com/guides/moe_calls.html.
Well, Andrew had something come up at work and we can't make the appointment on the 8th. UGH. So I had to reschedule for the 15th. I really wanted to go this week, and had been looking forward to the appointment, but shit happens :)
So much for covering my tracks! He was actually okay with all of my blog entries, although he did say that he thinks all of my friends think he is a monster. I told him that ya'll don't think he is a monster, and that actually most of the time ya'll stick up for him! Maybe he is a monster, like that cute blue monster from Monsters, Inc! Blue Monster = Sparky
Speaking of the Blue Monster, that is his new nickname, he got a promotion at work today! He is officially now a Litigation Assistant! Congratulations Blue Monster! You go on with your bad, blue self :)
Last night Andrew told me he wanted his own blog. I told him I would create one for him, however I found it rather odd that he wanted a blog, since he threw such a hissy fit over mine a few weeks ago! But, whatever.
So I was creating it for him, and I asked him what he wanted the title of his blog to be. He said, "The Life of a White Married Pimp." Let's think about this.........yeah, that is what I thought!
What the hell! Why in the world does this white honky think he is a pimp?? He listens to old country music, if you even say the word vagina he blushes, and I once made the mistake of telling him I smoked pot and I thought he was going to sign me into the Betty Ford clinic!! I don't understand it.
I guess he is still just a teenager at heart! Boys!
BTW...I am not going to give out the address to his blog until I know what he is going to write about! I don't want to be embarrassed by his radical views or by his crazy inner-city language. The things that Andrew thinks are really funny are not typically humorous to me because I am not in 6th grade :)